Monday, January 9, 2012
K.Boswell Beauty is my new project. Often when I go out people compliment my makeup and I find myself wishing I had a business card on hand. Well problem solved, they're on the way. A new website is frustrating! Perfectionism is a problem of mine and I don't want to show anything until it is perfect. I need models and a great photographer and I happen to have some fantastic ones back home. Living somewhere new and not having as many connections is hard when trying to takeoff.
I really miss Texas. Y'all are mad but all the best people are. My last trip home I drove and as I got farther south people were warmer and friendlier. I happen to be warm and friendly and need to be around like persons. No where is perfect I've learned and as I said last time your troubles follow you wherever you go. Some places suit you better than others. Ideally I would do Utah in the summer and Texas in the winter but who gets exactly what they want?
People can be annoying, crass, and downright mean. It's so hard to love them despite that. Maybe it's because people aren't as friendly here that I've begun to notice an effort involved in being kind. (I hope no one takes offense, I mean in the day to day superficial encounters we have. I have met some lovely people here). I'm lucky that my job affords me the chance to break through an icy first impression and make someone feel comfortable and laugh. 90% of the women I work on sit in the chair with an attitude of indifference or boredom. It may take a minute but I get past that most of the time. I make women feel beautiful, how lucky am I?
It's hard on an intimate level. That's the same wherever you go I can promise you. Friendships and relationships are so delicate in infancy. Those small things that bother you? Mention them. If someone isn't willing to compromise now you're in for a world of trouble down the road. Never let someone say or make you feel like you're a bother, dumb, small, or unimportant. If you do you'll start to believe it. If you already believe it you need to call a friend immediately and tell them how you feel. I bet they'll say that you are a comfort, insightful, larger-than-life, and vital. No matter who you are someone loves you and thinks you're great. You need to remind yourself that they're right.
That's all for now folks.
Saturday, December 3, 2011
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate, our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?' Actually, who are you not be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it's in everyone, and as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence liberates others."
Whatever 'God' is to you- be it general goodness as Plato's forms or a very specific deity as the Christian God is, we are of goodness and we are divine. I don't know how to pledge myself to a religion when what I believe is somehow so defined and yet undefined.
This is one of my dearest beliefs; love is Godly. I don't mean love for your fellow man (though that is) I mean being in love. That feeling of completeness with that person, the unspeakable feeling of true belonging is incredible. Love, real love, calms your fears. It makes no sense but you can do more knowing you belong, your mind free from that sort of worry and more is accomplished.
But with all things we err, and we have to choose what we let in our lives. Compromises are essential but sometimes you can't, like when it comes to your personal freedom or happiness. Love isn't jealous. As Martin Luther said 'sin boldly' I say 'love boldly' and accept that there will be need for forgiveness and there will be mistakes. I'm writing this all to myself I hope you know, this isn't hypocritical ramblings. Sometimes I have to hear myself say (or read what I write) to solidify a resolution or accept a truth. You've written me with kind words and sage advice, as well as destain and accusations. The former is much greater but to the latter I can't defend writing a blog. It's an interactive diary and it was a very hard thing for me to decide to do and I've been so scared to share myself. I'm learning a lot as I do this and as I hear from you. I believe this is a good thing and that we can learn from and uplift one another, from our computer chairs or sitting in a coffee shop. I'm on my couch with my laptop and sharing what's in my heart and mind with you wherever you are. How is this not miraculous, intimate, and very human?
I wish you love.
Monday, June 7, 2010
Monday, May 31, 2010
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
No blog about gingers would be complete without Lucielle.
If you haven't seen How I Met Your Mother, do it NOW. Alyson is awesome.
Ariel. Nice depiction I'd say.
One of the best True Blood characters- Jessica. One of the most tragic characters of all time in my opinion. If you watch the show you know why.